Pink! My Favorite Color!

Welcome to my journey!

“But Jesus spoke to them at once.  “Don’t be afraid,” he said.  “Take courage.  I am here!” Matthew 14:27

Pink has always been my favorite color.  I have always been a HUGE advocate to all my friends to stay current with their mammograms and self breast exams.  And now I know why!

This post is the detail of my journey so far and I will continue to update throughout the days.

Last summer, I found a lump in my breast.  Now let me reiterate, I am ALWAYS on time with mammograms.  In fact I have a mammogram every February, my birthday month.

Due to insurance concerns, I had to be referred to a breast specialist.  I saw Dr. Liu in October and she examined me and was not overly concerned and thought this lump was a harmless cyst.  So I quit obsessing about it.  She sent me to get a 3D mammogram/mammogram/ultrasound. I waited to do this until January, yes, again for insurance purposes.  On January 15th, I went for all my testing.  After 2 hours of fun boob squishing, the radiologist came into the room and told me I have a small solid mass that needed a biopsy.  On January 19th I had a core needle biopsy where the radiologist removed three specimens to test.  The next week of waiting was very stressful.  I went from knowing that God is control and I will be fine to the extremes of what will I do if I have cancer?  Why me? This continued back and forth for the entire week until January 25th when I received the call from Dr. Liu.

And then she said the words.  I have invasive ductal carcinoma, grade 2, stage I.  I was immediately sick to my stomach.  I have no history of breast cancer in my family.  How am I going to tell Dennis?  And even more worrisome, how was I going to tell my children? Ugh!  The worst feeling ever!

Dr. Liu explained to me that if you were going to get cancer, this is the best one to get.  Huh??  I DON’T WANT TO HAVE CANCER AT ALL!!!

I immediately went that day to give blood to have my BRCA genes tested. The BRCA is a genetic mutation in genes that help control normal cell growth. Changes in these genes called BRCA1 and BRCA2 can help determine your chance of developing breast cancer and ovarian cancer.  These tests take three weeks to return, so once again, I am in the middle of a waiting game.  My tumor is a hormone hungry tumor and feeds on estrogen and progesterone.  I will be on a hormone blocker the rest of my life.  When I start this, it will immediately throw me into menopause.  At 47.  Oh yay.

On January 29th, I had a breast MRI to make sure the cancer has not spread.  Thank God it has not spread and there is just one tumor!  On January 31st, we met with a Tumor Board.  The Tumor Board is comprised of a radiologist, radiation oncologist, oncologist, plastic surgeon, and general surgeon.  Dr. Liu presented my case to the board and they discussed the findings to determine my best plan of care.  We had the opportunity to meet each of the physicians and ask any questions we had.  What a stressful day this was!

On February 2nd, we met yet again with Dr. Liu to discuss everything.  As we walked into the Arizona Center for Cancer Care, all I could think of is why the HE** am I here??  This is all just a bad dream, right?  I am too young to have cancer! I just want to go back to my normal life!  I am too healthy for this!  I workout 4-5 days per week!  I play tennis 3-4 days per week!  And I run!  I eat healthy (for the most part), I drink lots of water, I drink red wine (good for your heart, right?!).  Cancer doesn’t care.  Cancer does not discriminate and pick unhealthy people.

We spent 1-1/2 hours with Dr. Liu and Dr. Chen (my radiation oncologist) to discuss everything and we have a tentative plan!

On March 8th, I am scheduled for a lumpectomy and lymph node dissection. She will sample the sentinel nodes in my armpit to make sure the cancer has not spread.  The tumor will be removed and sent to pathology to make sure the margins are clear, along with the lymph nodes to make sure there are no signs of cancer under the microscope.  Approximately 2-3 weeks after surgery, I will undergo brachytherapy, which will be radiation that will be administered from the inside out.  I will receive radiation twice daily for 5 days.

As long as my BRCA testing is negative, my tumor has clean edges, and my lymph nodes are negative, I should not need chemotherapy! Hallelujah!  I get to keep my hair!

I am feeling fine physically.  Mentally a million thoughts go through my head, but I have to remember to focus on my faith in God.  My prognosis is great and I will fully recover and survive to help others.  I FULLY believe that God will use this trial for good.  Already this past week five friends have gotten or scheduled their mammograms.  How awesome is that?!  All because of my story!

I am sharing this with you to ask for prayers as I believe there is immense power in friends and family and those you don’t even know who are praying for you!  So please, share my story, go get your mammogram if you are due, and pay attention to your body. This is what saved me and brought me to where I am today!

Thank God for the support of my rock, Dennis, and the amazing love I feel surrounded by my family friends.  I know God’s got my back and I will fully recover!  Best thing is…I can wear pink every day now and wear it proud!

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Love you all!

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”  Romans 8:28

38 thoughts on “Pink! My Favorite Color!

  1. Stacy as I have said before you inspire me as I heal. I have a lump I found last year they are monitoring it. So thank you for telling this and letting me be part of your journey!
    If you need anyone in February to drove or just hang out I can do that please don’t hesitate!! Love your life god give us struggles so we can show others how to deal with it. And you are doing it so amazingly beautiful

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  2. If there is anyone who can beat this you are that person! Stay strong my beautiful “first Eau Claire friend” Sending positive thoughts and prayers to you along with giant hugs. ❤ U! Heide

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  3. You are a rock Stacey! You have this beat before the race bagan because you live in a world with God and a long beautiful lifetime of memories to make. Thank you for sharing your story. Prayers for you and the family!! Satah C.

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  4. Stacy,
    Your courage & outlook are inspiring! Thank you so much for sharing. Thoughts & many prayers are with you today & throughout your journey. I’m praying for the best possible results & a speedy recovery. You are not alone. Keep the FAITH & God bless!

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  5. Stacy,
    My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am a Cancer survivor. I understand (as well as I can) what you are going through.
    I hope everything goes well with you. If you need an ear, please done hesitate. I also have a close personal friend that had went though a very similiar situation a couple of years ago.
    Prayers!! You got this!

    Phil Friedman

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  6. Stacy you are my sister and I know I can always count on you when I needed an ear to listen. I have already told you this but if you need anything, please ask. I love how strong you are my friend

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  7. Stacy,
    Hi. I read this and from the start kept saying “No, please God No” but knew where it was going by the title. Needless to say, I will be calling you today. We love you and can add us to your prayer warriors.

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  8. Stacy you are strong and God has this and you in his hands! Sukes up my strong friend you will beat this and we will all be praying for you! My mom has been cancer free for over 19 years & if you need someone to talk to I know she would be happy to talk about it. You already have this beat with your faith, tour support system and your positive outlook. Keep fighting the good fight & know we are fighting with you and will be praying! Sending love ,prayers & positive thoughts your way 🙏❤️🤗

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  9. Stacy, as I was reading this it almost felt as if I was the one writing it! We are wearing the same shoes!! I was diagnosed on my 40th birthday! Yes, too young, Yes, what the HE** am I doing here, I was in the best shape of my life etc! The waiting game was insane! Sometimes it felt like you were almost being forgotten by the medical team, but they were working on your case. After a double Mastectomy and several surgeries, I sat in Chemotherapy my first time and the average age was 80 and again I thought, “What the HE** am I doing here! This is a nightmare and I wanted to wake up! It is a tough road to be on and I wonder everyday what the purpose of me getting cancer is!! Stay strong and know that if you need anything and if I can help you please let me know!!!

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  10. Stac…I hate to hear this news but I love to see/hear that you remain faithful in God’s promise and more so knowing that He is the ultimate Healer. Two years ago, I too, was diagnosed with a cyst against my breast wall and it is being watched. I am blessed and thankful that it is benign and I pray that it remains this way. You will be in my prayers and I’m so thankful that you can see that you can use this to support others that may be going through the same. I love you and if there is anything I can do, please reach out. Xoxo

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  11. Stacy, We both Been through alot this is just one more little hurdle you are strong and you can beat this.
    You have my Prayers and my support im here for you. XOXO

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  12. Stacy Beans,
    I am so incredibly proud of you for starting this blog and already serving others by sharing your story and getting them to have mammograms. You may be saying “why me” but your heart and head are thinking of others. Love that spirit about you. I know this will be an opportunity for you to lead others to Christ or just to say I’ve been there to someone else. Love you! Can’t wait to see you and have our adventure in Nashville! Anything you need let me know and I will come visit you 😊praying sweet friend! You got this and you look pretty in pink! Xoxox Amy

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  13. You and your family absolutely have our prayers. I am so sorry you have to walk through this. But I do know our God is big and He can handle all our fears and questions. Stay strong my warrior friend.

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  14. Anyone can beat this you can Stacy God is with you and I’ll be sending prayers to you and your family my mom had breast cancer she was a 36 year breast cancer survivor stay strong Godspeed

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  15. Cancer sucks! Thinking of you and thank you for sharing your story and journey . Will be praying for you to beat this cancer quickly . Let me know if there is anything I can do.

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  16. Stacy ! Wow I was shocked to read this news. One thing I know about you is, your Avery strong woman and you can beat anything that comes in your path! God is always in charge and he knows you have a lot to stay around here fir, so I believe you will be just fine! I’m sooo sorry you and your family have to go through this!😥I will keep you in my prayers and keep track of your progress ❤️❤️❤️Love you girl!

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  17. Stacy, you are such an inspiration and I love how positive you are and how you are using this opportunity for growth but also by sharing with others, being vulnerable, and inspiring others to take care of themselves too. Sending you lots of love and prayers.

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  18. Hi Stacy,

    Yes, God is in control! Everything happens for a reason. …He cares for the sparrow, how much more for you?

    Lifting you up in prayer, even as we speak! Will have our congregation praying for you as well. First name only on our prayer list. I’m in charge of that dept.


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  19. Stacy,
    I know how strong you are, you are going to kick this cancers ass!
    We are here for you, so let us know if you need anything at all.
    We love you ❤️
    Steph & Jerry

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  20. Stacy. I’m am sorry you have to go through this and glad the prognosis is so good. You are strong. I know you will come out on top of this and I am thinking if you and sending prayers. Love ya!!

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  21. Stacey, I have always thought of you as an amazing woman. I have no doubt that you will beat this hands down. If there’s anything you need please let me know. Until then your in my thoughts and prayers..
    Dave Carlton

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  22. Stacy dear, thanks for sharing. I’m sorry to hear about you too having to undergo this therapy and procedure. Please trust the Lord and believe with all your heart that you CAN and WILL be completely cancer free thanks to it and never look back. Your aunt just past her 5-year mark in 2017. Praise God. Sending you much love and all the healing energy you can receive. Manu

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  23. Stacy,
    You got this, girl! You are one strong chick and I know you can beat this. So thankful that you caught it early and have a good plan and a good team. I’ve gone through “the waiting game” too – waiting for test results and fearing the worst while trying to keep a positive outlook. It’s so tough, but you can do it. Stay positive and focused. Surround yourself with people who lift you up. This too shall pass. All of your tennis sisters are cheering you on!
    Sending prayers and hugs your way,

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  24. Stacey, you have an amazing attitude about the hand you’ve been dealt. I have four friends going through what you are or have gone through it. I’m going to share your story.

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  25. To my friends Stacy and Dennis,

    You both have some idea what I have been through. I believe everything has been a lesson I needed to learn. Some of those lessons were scary, some left me marked physically, some needed because I was selfish, those that taught me how important friends and family are, and others taught me empathy and kindness. I don’t pretend to have all the answers and I know that there are going to be more lessons I’ll be challenged with. I know it scares the sh!t out of you. It would me too. The best advice I can give you is stay strong in your faith, stay close to your family and friends. Be patient with them, don’t rule out that there may be lessons for them to learn as you go through this, and last keep an open mind. I have some books you might want to read if your interested. You are an amazing woman with a huge network of friends that I’m sure would do anything to help you. It’s ok to ask for help. That was my hardest lesson. You’re in my prayers

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  26. There is life after cancer girlie. I love the analogy about how God is the captain of our ship and you can always trust him to guide you in the right direction. We don’t always know the path he will take but. You can always trust that he is going to look out for you and look out for your family. I hope you get to see some of the blessings and miracles that have already come to you because of this and will still get to come to you because of this. 😘

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  27. Hello Stacy. So, Rich asked me to go to your link/blog. I too found a lump in my breast in February 2015. Mine was 1cm, poss same name as yours. Surgery was in late April, I call it a lumpectomy, but actually a segmental mastectomy. I also had 3 lymph nodes removed. No cheno. 26 daily treatments of radiation. I would go in at 7am out by 720 and at work by 8am. I was fortunate to only miss work 3 days. I am currently on a hormone blocker for 5 Years total. I take letrozole daily, lots of side effects. Hate this tiny pill, but very lucky of the sentence given.

    Best of luck to you. Scary at first, but you’ve got this. I did not post my stoty on fb, just my choice. Pm me if you want or need to. Rich knows more of the terminology than I do.

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